so your at your cousins birthday right now, but i just wanted to say i love you so much and miss you even though its only been a few hours. if i could stay up all night talking to you i absolutely would i wish i could do it every night. im in a kinda weird place right now and wish you could talk to me because you always seem to make me feel amazing and safe and loved. i dont think you know how much you mean to me julian, ill love you forever even if you ever loose your love for me