mama- what happened? you were so good to me. what changed about me? what suddenly wasn't enough for you? was it the fact that i found my real friends and they weren't what you were used to? was it because i'm growing old enough to recognize and call you out on your bullshit? because i'm done being respectful. you taught me to shut my mouth. you put your own hand over my lips but dear fucking god i will bite and flail and scream until you realize how unhappy i am. the only things you take seriously about me are what you deem acceptable and it hurts so so much. after we had that argument about the plates that one night i didn't eat for days. just thought you should know.