Unsent Messages

Oooo but lemme get one thing clear the day you treated me like your second best option was the day you lost me because there was no competition. Shouldn’t have even been a choice. But I’m so happy I left and made it easier for you to decide :) I’m deadass typing to thin air but fuck you. Were we not experiencing the same stuff? The love was fucking unreal it was magical and you actually don’t give a shit you threw it all away. That’s crazy and somehow I became your collateral. I was the one that got broken when I was trying to save you. How tf do you love someone but then traumatize them to the point where they don’t even recognize themselves. I don’t know myself anymore. Idk what’s wrong w me. I’m the happiest I’ve ever been and the saddest at the same time. Bruh my mom thinks I’m going to kill myself haha like I’m depressed and idk what’s wrong w me but I’m not gonna kill myself. And I can tell my friends know deep down I’m fucked in the head after everything and Ik they see im broken but I also know they don’t know what to do and are just trying to be there for me as much as they can. Why didn’t I just listen to them in the beginning. Life isn’t a fucking fairytale but something about us was soooo perfect and so magical like one that I thought it would work out in the end. I was dead set on a future, that’s fucking crazy. I don’t think I’ll ever be the same person again, this sounds so dramatic but something actually died in me