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we used to clash at night. id wanna cuddle because i was too cold, but youd be too hot. id want to turn around but youd want me to stay cuddling. i used to shake my foot to sleep, it didnt bother you. you used to kiss me in my sleep. you treated me like i was eveything. you were my soulmate. i hate i ruined us just because i let my ego takeover. nights arent the same. i just want to wake up to your green eyes, pale skin shining in the sun. i just want to kiss your peach fuz face. and lay my head on your chest and listen to you breathe. i want to love you. i crave nothing but loving you. and us. i’m so sorry for everything. i know we wont ever be again but, a part of me can always hope. my grief, weighs heavy. from grieving the loss of us. the sunsets dont matter anymore like they used too. the feeling they gave me disappeared, i think thats how i know you finally let me go. im always the last to let go. thats why im so impatient to be first letting go. if you see this, and you still care or have hope in us, message me. ill be here.