note to self
you won't meet them yet. be patient because the more u sit in bed crying, the less time you have to be hopeful. young u would despise the loser u are now. i miss when you didn't care about all that stuff. you can be happy without anyone telling you how infatuated they are with you. hopefully, things will change soon. i want you to genuinely be happy for a week straight. I know you miss when that was all possible.