Unsent Messages

wish i could go back in time so i could be the one to reject YOU for once. or at least be the one to breakup with you. but no, i let you be the one to hurt me..once again. i did everything for you ya know. you were the only thing that mattered. the only person i wanted to talk to. everytime i was upset or bored i waited for you to text me. sometimes you did. and sometimes you didnt. i guess its just hard for me to process that its all over. when i saw you yesterday you were like a completely different person. yet so familliar, because ive seen you like that before i was just too blind to realise. all the attention you gave to me was the same as all the other girls. i felt special until i saw the way you gave attention to all of them the same you once did for me. only this time you ignore me, and pay attention to them. i know that you dont care about. youre probably over the breakup. im just so fucking stupid and i will forever regret not gettinf back at you for the way you made me feel. and those times you made me feel like i would never be good enough, like i needed to change. i had the chance to hurt you. twice. but i didnt wanna do that to you. even tho i was unhappy you didnt treat me right i would shut up because you were all i had. i just wish i couldve been good enough for you. i know that i deserve a lot better than you. all my friends can see it. no one seems to like you, it was kinda embarrasing for people to find out we had a thing. but now its even more embarrasing because someone like YOU ended things with ME. can you imagine how stupid that makes me look. its so hard to see you talk about other girls. and the way youre a whole different person to me now. its like i never meant anything. now is my time to accept that were over and i dont need you. i dont need those regrets, i dont need to be insecure, i dont need your attention, i dont need to prove to you that ive moved on, i dont need you at all. now its my time to heal. also fuck you haha. i was way too hot for you anyways. i just hope you know that if you ever try to come back into my life i wont be as stupid this time and im rejecting ur ass. keep that in mind when things dont work out with your whores. oh yeah, the same whores who youre gonna do the exact same thing to them that you did to me. because you know what trevor, you will never be able to have one and only one person. youre going to treat them all the same. i honestly feel bad for anyome who shows intesert in you. because wow are they in for a heartbreak. not like many girls like you anyways. not with a personality and looking like THAT. i lowered my standards and gave you a chance but no ur still a dick. everyone can see it trevor. everyone. well anyways, im so over it i dont wanna spend another second thinking about you. its time for me to move on and also fuck you! i cant believe all the shit i did for you, or trying to get ur attention. well i dont want it anymore. i cut off relationships with people just to be with you. but you played me. fuck you and fuck off. i hate you. i hate you so much you asshole. okay now im actually done. goodbye forever trevor. idc if we never talk again because i dont need you and im going to be fine without you.