i kind of wish i could delete these because that was so dramatic and i was just like in a moment and im coming out of it now and like. im trying to move on but i miss you so bad and i wish i didnt have to, im only doing it because i need to put my walls back up i think and stop letting anyone in. but ill always let you in. my darling. we will both be okay. ill never forget you, and i hope you never forget me. i hope youll talk to me again. i love you. i miss you so much.