i trusted you so much i told you i couldnt handle a breakup i trusted you with my body and with my soul and the parts of me no one knows, no one. not a soul and it hurts so bad that you were able to throw it out like that. you deserved so much more than me and i know that but for a while it felt so real, like i could pretend i was enough for a little bit. i hope you find someone new, as much as i want to die thinking about it you deserve to be loved. maybe my love wasnt enough or the style i love in was too much or too little or i never gave as much as i could but one day im sure someone will love you how you want, and ill be so happy for you. but i think if im around ill go catatonic. you deserve a girl who is pretty, and sweet, and nice on the inside too. someone who will bake you cookies and not act like its a cooking show and time herself and be all fucking weird and put an announcer voice on and annoy everyone in the house. someone who can drive around without blasting everyones ears out with how loud their music is, someone who doesnt throw it back to FUCKING CLASSICAL MUSIC someone who is actually funny someone who loves themself someone pretty someone smart. youll find her one day and she will be normal and she wont have cptsd and she wont have a fractured personality or depression or anxiety and she'll be able to give you everything you need. and ill be happy for you, but ill never stop missing you