Unsent Messages

it hurts so bad to miss you, i cant talk to anyone about it im literally talking to a WEBSITE that no one will ever see let alone you and its not like you would care anyways i dont think which is okay its all okay. i keep thinking about you finding someone else oh god it is all i think about. not all. a lot. i think about how i can get you back a lot too. and mixed in is the undying love i have for you, plus how unendurably, heartwrenching much i miss you. i dont want you to forget me ]: i dont want to forget you. i dont want to forget our love and how much i love you and parts of it is slipping away and i know thats the depression and its not my fault but christ almighty do i fucking hate it. ive been fucking trying to recreate memories with other people because of how bad it hurts to think that ill never be able to create new ones with you. it hurts. i hurt. watching fucking wes anderson movies with people sitting there pretending they are someone they arent, its awful. i miss you and i dont understand how you can go so long without texting me and how i am pathetic enough that i dont think ill ever get to the point of not reaching out or spewing my feelings to random people or my friends who dont care anymore but i just cant. i cant handle how bad it hurts ive never loved anyone this hard you had a part of me. you still have it and ill never get it back and i dont want it back because it belongs to you but you dont want it and that hurts the worst