i miss calling you, i miss your morning voice and i miss texting you when i woke up. i miss you telling me about your day and a song you discovered and love and i miss your love. i miss you. i cant believe i messed up how i did and how its so easy for you not to text me when all i want all day is to talk to you its unbearable its truly unbearable and i have been trying but i cant keep my promise i cant and it hurts so bad. i want you i miss you so bad but youll never be back and thats okay. i keep thinking about how much could have been different if i hadnt had my head in my ass and deep down i know what i did was something i needed to do because i learned so fucking much from it about how truly truly awful i am and can be and that ill never do that again ever. ill never love after you, people say that part changes but i feel myself moving on and that part hasnt. i see you in everyone. i miss you.