From: ABC
To: B
Date: January 14, 2021, 8:34 pm
we really used to talk so much. we would facetime every night, designate times to plan our future together, talk about our feelings, but now we dont talk that much anymore. i thought you would be my forever but now it seems like you’re just a memory. we dont talk like we used to and its killing me, it seems we used to be so alike and now we’re polar opposites. i hate change, as you know. i wish things were different. i wish we didnt have to like other people because although i don’t think i really have a crush on you anymore, i do still love you and it really makes me hate her. but i want you to be happy and i don’t want to burden you. i’m trying not to hate her, i really am. i don’t overthink anything unless it’s about you. i just want to go back to summer 2020; falling asleep on facetime, pulling unintentional all nighters, reminding each other to put out our moon water....
but maybe i am just overthinking it. maybe we just aren’t talking as much because of school, or maybe it’s because we’re both feeling a bit depressed- i know i am, and to be honest, i’ve felt it from you too. or maybe you’re doing the best you’ve ever been and decided you don’t want me in your life anymore. i don’t know.
love u tho
