been looking through our texts for about 2 hours. it hurts so much. seeing texts saying id crumble without you. saying that id be dead before i hurt you. not sure what hurts more, seeing me hitting 3 week milestones multiple times or you saying you love me and that i was perfect, and that we were healthy. saying there was zero toxicity and that we were perfect. i miss that phase. i love you. thank you for those memories love. i am sorry for what we did. we shouldn’t smoke together again that was so horrible i am so afraid someone is going to find out. i love you dear.