Unsent Messages

hey B, i’m still gonna see you every day since ur in my class but ig this is me saying goodbye to what could’ve been, what had happened and my heartbroken feelings. you have a girlfriend now and ur literally a lovesick puppy bc of her. and i’m happy for you, i truly am. tho i wish it were me but it would’ve never happen anyways. i’ve had feelings for you for 3 years now but they’re slowly dying away, little by little and i hope i’ll feel happiness like you do with her. although we’ve never dated, and you probably didn’t even like me nearly as much as i liked you, you’ve affected me sooo much. you led me on and it hurts. it truly hurts, but i guess i was bound to meet and eventually fall for someone like you at some point in my life. i don’t regret what i felt for you tho. i wouldn’t take it back. it was truly fun while it lasted even though this was always one-sided. she was ur first girlfriend and i’ve always had a distaste for her, mainly bc she was ur first kiss, and she was the perfect blond, blue eyes, perfect body girl. you had 4 other gfs after her before eventually going back to her. i knew it...and it seems that you’re actually lasting...which is nice. it’s weird, i’ve had crushes in the past, but none as intense as you. i was quite obsessed with you i’m very embarrassed. well to be fair, you are very attractive and it doesn’t help that every other boy in our school looks like shit so inevitably you stand out. anyways i hope by me writing this, it will give me hope, hope that when i look at you, that i consider you as another annoying boy and nothing more and that everything that makes you appear in my head will be gone. gone forever.