i don't really sleep much now, and lately i've been laying awake staring at the sky, thinking of what it might be like...
didn’t know i was even capable of blushing

so, here’s a few things i needed to say:

i don’t want to get scared and leave, and that freaks me out because i’m an expert at just... running away.

cutting you out really hurt (even if i say i cope better alone) but you shouldn’t have to listen to that stuff. i wait until i’m back to normal so you won’t be sad.

damn this is probably the longest note by far but it’s 4am and i have zero chance of sleeping if i don’t get it out.

i know it’s selfish to ask this but just wait a little while longer.
you’re.. precious, i guess, and i’m trying my best to be careful with you.


ps, you should really see the stupid grin when your name pops up on my phone :)