It's been 4 months since you left. And in the last 6 months you've gone to two of your girlfriend's birthday parties. Except yesterday it was hers. and not mine. I really am trying to be okay. I think the only reason i'm alive is because i wouldn't want you to blame yourself but its getting really hard to try. so i may have to say goodbye even if i really don't want to. I just don't see any other way out of my head.