From: ABC
To: Allie
Date: December 9, 2020, 4:39 am
Hello
No, we shouldn't talk. I'm afraid of you. Your dragon ripped my throat out in a mess of screams. I can't speak or breathe. I can't make it okay. IM FUCKING DYING ALLIE. I'm so angry and hurt and the feeling that I'm drowning hasn't left. I wanna drown, I wanna scream so loud you can hear it reverberate off the moon. I want my screams to send shock waves through the ground and cause a fucking earthquake. I want it to rip the very place I stand so I can live in hell but in peace. I painted the night sky on your back. I GAVE YOU MY SKY. I gave you everything I was in love with you. For your information, I haven't found anyone willing to treat me the way I deserve. You taught me I am more than lies and empty promises. You warned me, I wish I listened. I wanna fucking rip myself apart. You can't take away things I learned about myself when I stayed in your castle locked away. I will always be my own Marcy I will always be my own Bubblegum I will be my own moon I am still Pacific Kai. YOU CAN NOT TAKE THAT AWAY FROM ME. I don't miss you or hate you don't get it twisted. I just wish I could erase you from my history. I wish we never met and I mean that. Thank you, I am much more confident without you. I am coping with everything in different ways now. I rebuilt myself into someone you've never kissed or touched or loved. I am so much more than the moon now. I do not owe that to you though I owe that to myself. Thank you for tearing me in places I didn't even understand because I am now someone who is confident and proud. I am still mourning the loss of Bumblebee and Margaret but I'm living the life of Pacific Kai and it is amazing and it is without you. Expect more from
The moon
Bumblebee
Artemis
The one the only Pacific Kai