I know you hate me and want me dead. you have every reason to. i saw cruel to you after we broke up. i was young and emotional but i was still an asshole. anyway. i think im still recovering too. it still hurts to think of you with someone else or imagine it. i dont think i miss you or want to be with you, i think i just miss having someone like you. but that person shouldnt be you. are you recovering too? sometimes i cant stand watching the youtubers we used to watch together because it hurts so much. cody especially. i can only really watch him when im doing alright emotionally because it brings back memories otherwise. oh well. take care. good luck in college.