Unsent Messages

I'm pretty sure I caught feelings for you. And while it is lovely to feel this way again, I'm also somewhat ashamed and even scared that I'll ruin everything between us. Our friendship is so much more important to me than whatever dump pining feelings I have and I love having you in my life as much as you are. You make me laugh and smile so much more lately than ever before, though. And it's just so confusing to not understand if you're just opening up more or showing signs of reciprocation. What would I know anyways, though? I'm kinda clueless when it comes to this stuff, and I just get too nervous and overthink in any case anyway. I do want to tell you how I feel at some point, but it's gonna be a good bit until I can confront this and be honest with myself before being honest with you as well. Thank you though. You make me real fucking happy and I'm so grateful to have you in my life.