Unsent Messages

Im listening to all of the songs you like. I've been doing so good, but tonights just a little harder.I wanna let you go, I have you blocked but I still check her location because I know y'all are together. Her story is muted because I hate seeing y'all together, but I still check to see if she has posted every ten minutes. You keeping texting and calling my friends to try and get me to unblock you or to talk to you but I wont.You asked if I would sneak out last night even though she was with you. maybe y'all aren't together. maybe im wrong. maybe you actually really love me. but I know that's not true. y'all are together. maybe you want me but y'all are together. if you were just gonna keep asking me to hangout then why did you choose her. Why didn't you choose me. I shouldn't be mad at her, she doesn't know. I feel bad for her too, she thinks you are loyal and good. she doesn't know you like I do yet. I honestly should thank her, its better to know that you aren't shit sooner than later. I just wish it wasn't five months wasted. I don't know why I miss you. Everyone always said you were ugly, but I didn't care you were attractive to me.I loved your eyes and your voice, I still hear it in my head. I can't stop thinking about you. I just want to kiss you one last time. be in your arms, you holding my face in your hands and rub my check with your thumb just one more time, look into your eyes and think everything is ok one last time. but I can't. I can't want you anymore.You have someone new now. I want you to be good for her, even though she's not me you should treat her well, be loyal, appreciate her. One time you told me that you wanted me to be your best friend, someone you could talk to, be your everything. I hope she is all those things for you. I hope she makes you happy and makes you smile. I want the best for you. this has to be goodbye. I don't want to hurt anymore. so goodbye. I love.