Unsent Messages

I hate you. I hate you for treating me like shit and then telling me you liked me. I hate the fact that you said you didn't like me anymore because you were too embarrassed to want to have an actual relationship with me. The amount of time I have spent overthinking every conversation and romanticizing every interaction. You made me feel insecure and worthless. You made me self conscious about how I looked and then would ask why I wasn't talking to you in class. But no matter how much I hated you, I hate myself more for liking you back. For liking someone who made me so self conscious and commented on basically every part of my appearance and personality. How could I like someone who hated everything about me? So add that to the list of things you fucked over because I'm so sick of wondering what I did wrong, and why I was never good enough.