From: ABC
To: J
Date: November 30, 2020, 2:45 pm
I wish you hadn't just given up on us and that you would of tried to make it work through the hard time. I wish you wouldn't of shut me out and left me on my own. I need you in my life more than just as a boyfriend but as a friend and now i am just expected to remove you from my life, like its so easy. I think part of me knew the relationship wasn't working anymore and it i just didn't want to admit to it so i admire how you were brave enough to acknowledge that. I just thought we would be able to work through it this time but i suppose not. I just wish that you would come back to me its weird to think that just 86 days ago i was with you and we were so inlove. I feel like there's a gap in my life now that you use to fill and i don't want to have to accept it but i have too. I just can't bare the thought of you with someone else, and I'm so worried your going to move on like we never happened and i don't think I'm ready for that. i love you so much and have so much love for you still even considering the pain you are putting me through, but i have to try and remember you are putting me through this pain because you said you couldn't continue hurting me. I just wish things were different and that we could be together in another reality because you made me so so so happy and now I'm blue and alone. I can't get you out of my head you are all i think about 24/7 and I'm just reminded of what i have lost... it hurts so badly :((((( i miss you more than i could've thought i would, i just miss everything even the shitty parts of our relationship. I think its healthier for us to be apart i just wish we didn't have to separate so soon. I can't stop thinking about spain and whether to invite you are not, that was meant to be our trip i was meant to share the master bedroom with you but now I'm gonna sleep in there alone thinking about you. I want you to come back but i also don't want to have to go through this type of heartbreak again.
From A