Unsent Messages

i've liked you since my first day of school when i saw you sleepy when we were reading the book, i didn't think i would like you till now. i've seen you through your first relationship with her and how you and your friend were talking about how all the answers to the question was letter b and your friend was like "how many b's do you have" then your like "1 cause shes my only b" cause your gfs name started with the letter b. that honestly broke my heart. i also remember how you told your friends that i keep on looking at you but i feel your glances first dummy thats why i look at you, i was so mad cause they didn't know that you were the one that was looking at me all the time and yet you blame it on me. im trying my best to be mad at you, cause you got the recognition that i deserved and now my parents are comparing me to you, im so fucking mad at you tbh and you dont even know that, but the thing is i can't... and i hate that, i honestly can't because i like you so much, more than you'll ever know. i hate the fact that my parents are proud of you more than they'll ever be proud of me. I FUCKING HATE YOU, but i hate myself more because i can't actually hate you cause i like you :( i know you won't see this but im proud of you and what you've achieved, you've stepped up sm this year, i regret not saying congrats to you.