Unsent Messages

I don’t know why i’m doing this. We were never a real thing but it hurts so much we might as well have been. Childhood sweethearts. Liked each other since we were both around 7 and even with all the embarrassing moments and the tears we never stopped. I went years and years without talking to you after that big change but even without your texts or calls or talks, i still found myself thinking about you every day. What’s even crazier was when i would find you looking at me as well and as soon as you were caught you would turn away quickly and look down at the floor like you’d always do when you were embarrassed. We went years and years being awkward with one another until that one day you saved me. you saved me from escaping this place that we call earth and saved me from missing out on the lovely events we then got to experience. it wasn’t an easy ride but it was all worth it. every second of it. but that’s the thing. all good things come to an end. as soon as i was happy. felt loved. you were taken from me, right in my arms.the last words you spoke were the words you spoke to me on the first day we met when we were only 5. “you’ll be okay”. yes i still remember. it was a very embarrassing moment for me to say the least but you stepped in and helped me, like my guardian angel. i guess you were also my guardian angel, helping me through all tough obstacles. you always appeared at the right time too. it’s funny because if you were with me right now, you would make fun of me at the state i am in so i am going to stop writing now before i drown in my own tears even though there are so many more things i could write. i hope you are happy. wherever you are. ‘you’ll be okay’. yours always, ‘Lulu’ . (still dislike the nickname btw)