From: ABC
To: roxy
Date: January 6, 2021, 3:28 am
hopefully you never see this hh. im not even mad. really all i am is just hurt dude ,, literally out of all times you chose to tell me now ? it would of been better if you told me from the start. i know i said that a bunch of times but jesus fucking christ man - like sure thanks for trying to make me happy i guess ? but dude what the fuck ??? like sure you being my favorite person is hard on your end ,, but bro shit definitely would of been better if you just told me from the start. i cant even blame you though - if the roles were reversed i probably would of done the same. i think at least. but really all i am is just hurt i guess - i fucking hate thinking about it all the time. i dont wanna be “just friends” - its gonna bug me for a good fucking while. like damn bro , feels like i just lost a loved one. is this whats been stressing you out this whole time ? did ur alter cover for you when i they reassured me ? cuz damn bro that shit hurts even more1!1!1! a small part of me wishes that u rlly do still like me back - i hope you make your mind up soon. just hoping that the answers im getting from everything is true - im probably getting my hopes up but its really whatever at this point. to sum it up- i just miss you already. its srsly gonna be hard knowing that i lost you in some way even though we’ll still be friends. it might bug me for months - or however long its gonna take for me to get over you. shit really wont be the same around you. you were kinda right - i do see you differently. i dont hate you - im not mad - if anything this is sorta my fault ? i made you feel pressured to get with me ,, like sure you’re my favorite person but you shoulda just been honest. again - im not mad. just really fucking hurt - you were right about me not being able to muster up the strength to even be mad at you. how could i even be mad ? sure you srsly led me on,, but somehow im not even mad ?? this probably isnt okay - i should be mad but im just not ?? probably cuz i still rlly love you? but its whatever i guess. some shit i said in here probably doesnt even make sense but its rlly just me rambling about it.