Unsent Messages

hey it’s my birthday lol, i miss you so much and i wish you were here, there’s so much going on right now, i am trying to convince myself that i’m getting better but i’m honestly not, i had the worst day ever and i’ve just been in a bad mood all day and i haven’t really texted anyone because i don’t wanna lash out on them, they don’t deserve to be lashed out on for no reason and i feel so bad and it makes me feel like a terrible person because deep down i’m a good person but when i act like this it just messes everything up. philip texted me today, he asked how i was doing and how my day was, i told him about the concert and he’s really happy for me, i wish you were here because you always gave the best advice and i have been needing it lately, like me and this boy i’ve been telling you about, i feel like he doesn’t like me, but i always think that no matter what, he’s too good for me and he doesn’t deserve me at all, and i feel bad for him because i act like a bitch all the time and i can’t help it. i miss you so much maddie and i wish you were here - your best friend:).