You said you wanted to be seen as the color blue, so here you go, I guess. I'm sorry I made everything so confusing. I miss you-- even when we talk it doesn't feel the same as before and it sucks. But it shouldn't hurt because I'm the one who said it was too complicated. And I know that was the right decision. I was trying not to hurt you and ending up hurting both of us in the process. Unless you're not even hurt. Sometimes it's hard to tell. It sucks to be just friends with you but I know that's how it has to be. I said that's how it has to be. But I miss making you smile.