Unsent Messages

you make my whole world light up, like the sun and the moon have finally met each other and the earths entire atmosphere is at peace. i keep finding myself at the edge of your bed, on my knees begging for mercy, and you give it to me, you give me the world if i’d ask you for it. but you wouldn’t give me your love, oh to be loved by you, it must be so incredibly wonderful, i envy her every second of the day for having you when i do not. for being loved by you must feel like what a flower feels like when it’s blooming, and i will desire that feeling forever. because you don’t love me like you love her, and you don’t hold me like you held her. and every time i’m with you i forget for just a moment that you are not mine, only to be reminded like a wave crashing against a ship at sea that you belong to someone else, and i am yet again left drowning in the love i have for you. and when you leave, i feel like you take all the light in the world with you, leaving me in complete darkness, lost, alone, and drowning in the love i have for you. my heart breaks a million times a day for you, and i will let it for the rest of my life if it means for a single moment i get to forget that i’m drowning, i will risk the rest of my sanity to hope that one day i’ll be loved by you, that one day i too will bloom.