Unsent Messages

i’m sorry. it’s not like you’re going to check this and see if there’s anymore letters here for you so i can say whatever i want. not like even if you do read it that you won’t know who it’s from. i’m sorry that i tried to push you away so i wouldn’t get hurt this much but it’s okay. i knew that you wouldn’t wait for me but now that it’s really happening it hurts me a lot that the one thing i was looking forward to won’t be the same. you’ve made me so happy in the short time that i’ve known you and made me feel safe and comfortable like i’ve not felt in a long time, thank you. but that’s not your job to do that and especially now since you’re not waiting for me and you don’t like me anymore but it’s okay that doesn’t matter. you probably think that i’m so stupid for saying all this and all the things that i say to you but idk, there’s just something about you that makes me feel a different kind of peace and happy. i’m really sad that you couldn’t stick to your promise that i wouldn’t let you make but at least now you can stop wasting your time and actually be happy. you mean so much to me and i think you always will, you’ve helped me so much without you even knowing and that’s saved me. i’m sorry xx