i’m sorry. it’s not like you’re going to check this and see if there’s anymore letters here for you so i can say whatever i want. not like even if you do read it that you won’t know who it’s from. i’m sorry that i tried to push you away so i wouldn’t get hurt this much but it’s okay. i knew that you wouldn’t wait for me but now that it’s really happening it hurts me a lot that the one thing i was looking forward to won’t be the same. you’ve made me so happy in the short time that i’ve known you and made me feel safe and comfortable like i’ve not felt in a long time, thank you. but that’s not your job to do that and especially now since you’re not waiting for me and you don’t like me anymore but it’s okay that doesn’t matter. you probably think that i’m so stupid for saying all this and all the things that i say to you but idk, there’s just something about you that makes me feel a different kind of peace and happy. i’m really sad that you couldn’t stick to your promise that i wouldn’t let you make but at least now you can stop wasting your time and actually be happy. you mean so much to me and i think you always will, you’ve helped me so much without you even knowing and that’s saved me. i’m sorry xx

i’m very happy that i speak to you, you make me very happy and smile a lot :) you’re best and cutest ray ray ever to exist xoxox

you really hurt me. really bad. i asked you to simply talk to me and you couldn’t do that. why? why did you hurt me like this? why have you hurt me? you said you wouldn’t and that you’ll always be here for me

i’m not very good at writing things and i don’t even know if you’re actually going to like this, but at least i’ve tried :) i’ll never understand why you decided to randomly add my from frey’s priv even after all the terrible things she’s put on there of me. i never thought that i’d ever speak to you anywhere near as much as i do, let alone you of all people make me so happy ? i’m so so so sorry that we can’t meet each other and i want you to know that it is okay if you don’t want to wait and you get bored, it’s fine xoxox i don’t think i’ll ever understand or believe that you like me as much as you say but oh well. if you do wait for me then i think i’ll be the happiest i’ve ever been :) you’re so sweet and so cute. don’t deny it or we’re not friends, thanks :). you might not be a cute note type of person but i like it so yea. thank you for being silly and still being concussed, lots of love aimee xxxxxxx