From: ABC
To: Tal
Date: December 30, 2020, 4:06 pm
why do people like you so much? you’re an awful person and the worst part is you’re completely unaware. gb was right you are just like your dad. i know i’m not perfect either but i was a lot better before us. you irreversibly fucked me up and stole all of my firsts just to cheat on me. WHILE I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL. fuck you so so much. you took so many pieces of me. my mom still hates you so much. she called you the devil and she’s right. i am so bitter that i will never be the same person i was before. honestly i didn’t realize how much i still hate you until i talked to my cousin. she told me that i’m “so easy to give and receive love from” and i cried so hard. you made me feel hard to love. i whored around, thinking that nobody could possibly love me again. because the first time, it was a lie. that all they could possibly want was sex, so i might as well give them something as a reward for dealing with me. and i still feel that way. any time someone shows interest in me i think of you and i resent it.
