I cant keep pretending i dont miss you. All though, I am much happier without you. I have found this most amazing relationship, and I wont let thoughts of you ruin that for me. I could go on forever about how badly you shattered my heart and left me with so much pain and trauma, but I wont waste it because I know you will never see this. As for now, I am moving on. I don't love you and I hope 2021 is the worst fucking year for you. Please get out of my head and out of my dreams.. I hate you lucas.. I hate you.