you deserve more than anyone has ever given you, and you mean more to me than you think. i wish i hadn’t been the way i was back then. maybe things would be different now. but would it even matter? things are going so well for the both of us, but i wish we were closer. i wish i understood you better. you have no idea how much that call meant to me. the one where i thought i’d messed up so bad. where i thought i’d begun something irreversible. what you said to me has kept me from that ever since. you’ll never see this i think, you won’t know who i am. but thank you for every word you’ve ever spoken to me.
