Unsent Messages

Thank you for all the facetime calls till 7am. Thank you for the many times you have given me your hoodies. Thank you for the deep talks at 3am. But thank you for being my first love. I still remember the time when i would always wish upon a star that fate would put me and you together. Its cringey but, I loved you for a very long time. The amounts of tears that i shredded, the amount of times I got frustrated, frustrated that I loved you for so many years. I wanted to get over you cus I know that you wouldn't feel the same, but for some reason, my eyes would glance across the room, looking for you. My heart pulsing like crazy whenever you speak to me... and when you look into my eyes, butterflies would start to erupt. I loved you. I really did. But you started to get dry with me, you started to drift apart from me. It confused me, it hurted me. Even though you did this, I still waited. I waited for that reply, i waited for that call... but it never came. Love is weird. Love can build you, love can break you. But love teaches you things along the way. You. My first love, taught me that I shouldn't wait for things that would never happen.