Unsent Messages

you hurt me bad. im just glad it is over. i feel so much relief but not enough. shes watching me write this, she has helped me understand missing someone and not wanting them back is okay. i feel as if this was meant to be. we got eachother ready for life. also broke eachother a bit. but if this didnt happen i wouldve never met her. and shes the only clarity i have in this world. thank you for letting me be with her. thank you for being you and letting me go. i hope life is good. though i never want to hear from you again. i hope you see this is gain some closure if u havent already. i dont undermine our love we have, but it was obviously temporary and we both kind of knew that. i have so much to heal from still.. im taking it one step at a time as should you. youll always be a part of my past. someone i once knew. and no, i dont forgive you and i never can nor do i want too. i think you were too young to love me at full capacity , and healthily. that hurts me to think but oh well. and yeah, i do, i really really do hate you. and surprisingly its not exhausting hating you this time. and i think its because im not forcing. it isnt hard to hate you know after all youve done. you dont hold my heart anymore. you could never be worthy of it.