you hurt me bad. im just glad it is over. i feel so much relief but not enough. shes watching me write this, she has helped me understand missing someone and not wanting them back is okay. i feel as if this was meant to be. we got eachother ready for life. also broke eachother a bit. but if this didnt happen i wouldve never met her. and shes the only clarity i have in this world. thank you for letting me be with her. thank you for being you and letting me go. i hope life is good. though i never want to hear from you again. i hope you see this is gain some closure if u havent already. i dont undermine our love we have, but it was obviously temporary and we both kind of knew that. i have so much to heal from still.. im taking it one step at a time as should you. youll always be a part of my past. someone i once knew. and no, i dont forgive you and i never can nor do i want too. i think you were too young to love me at full capacity , and healthily. that hurts me to think but oh well. and yeah, i do, i really really do hate you. and surprisingly its not exhausting hating you this time. and i think its because im not forcing. it isnt hard to hate you know after all youve done. you dont hold my heart anymore. you could never be worthy of it.

if texting is too much thats okay i understand. i miss waking up next to you. i dont wanna move on. i miss you. it hurts. if its us. and always us. tell me before its too late.. dont be afraid..

theres alot of mixed signals .. and i cant handle it tonight im trying to be front forward cause i dont wanna loose u again .. i want you back.. i want to care for u

..i couldnt really fight if u never let me win.. i wanted to fight but u never let me win. i wanted to fight for u. but did u wanna fight for me? and if u did why didnt u. we dont live forever.

i hope we meet again. .. honestly i feel as if u are scared so youre making this as complicated as u can.. maybe it feels simple to you.. but you say u love me..why not just let yourself have me.. why r u holding back i don’t want to hear dumb excuses “she can make you happy “ because u can too

we can give eachother ons last chance. i know youre sad, i know its hard to want a relationship.. id make it as easy as possible. im just not ready for our story to end. i dont think its over. if we both love each other, we can make it work again. im ready to accept life n you and accept alot. im ready to make your mom smile uncontrollably when she sees us walking down the ilse. i crave you. i love you.

i know you’re done reading these cuz we r txting but god.. i was unpacking socks i havent worn in a long time that are yours, the fuzzy pairs.. god, how do they still smell like you? it made my body feel so calm but also felt like my stomach dropped. its killing me that i cant sleep next to you. youre the only one my heart lays with. your scent is my peace. nothing feels the same since it all happened.

Your truly a wonderful person.

i miss what we had. you ruined me.

I think knowing i had to let you go, was the most painful part. I wish it was us in the end.

im so grateful for our friendship.

i love you

The Way it Ended was Wrong on both sidesBut you handled things very Immaturely, still I am sorry

Why did you stop talking to me?

I wish i acted differently. I wish i could say sorry one last time.

I don't think you'll ever understand how much your words hurt me