ok we are just going to do it, if you see this, no you didn't :) i sometimes wish i never dmd you, not bc i didnt wish i met you bc it would be easier not having met you. you wouldnt be this amazing person i once knew, ya know? you would just have been a stranger...but everything happens for a reason, and maybe the reason you came into my life was too teach me a lesson, i needed to get my shi together. which i did, and it wasnt by any means easy. it was hard but im so happy where i am now. i just wish it didnt come at such an expendable cost. but thank you for everything. i wish i could tell you this str8 up but i rly dont think ud care and i get weird tlking to you. i can talk to everyone else but to you..i freeze. i sound stupid. but ya know its alr. you taught me so much. I finally get everything you told me in the end, it finally mkes sense. im always here for you, which doesnt rly matter rn, but i am. ill shut up and listen if you ever need it, no judgement. i use to hate you bc i still cared but then i realized its not a bad thing to care, it doesnt make you weak, it just makes you more human. a part of me will never forget you and a part of me will never not love you, but that means i just have to love the next person 10xs more than i loved you. which seemed impossible and still sometimes seems unachievable because im scared but thats just the cost of this journey im on. i hope you never doubt that i loved you, even if you didnt love me (thats worded qrong but w.e) i always had the best intentions, i never wanted to hurt you. i wanted to give you the world, forever. nut forever came to a hard end. maybe one day will be friends, or not. who knows? but remember youre worth, ight? okie bye monster.