Unsent Messages

you will probably never read this and that could possibly be for the best. it just that i love you more than i will ever be able to describe. the moments with you make me feel like im not living. time is a concept that will forever be against us and my biggest fear is that i wont have enough time to tell you or show you how much i love you. love is so complicated and its so hard to believe. i mean i hardly believed it when i first felt it. how could i feel such a strong way towards someone and never know if they knew it enough. i just cant even explain it. your laugh and your smell and even the way you simply move. i dont laugh the way i laugh with you to anyone else. your words and your speech are the most important to me and yet i dont appreciate it enough. i take advantage of the fact that i hear it so often and that it is constantly in my ear. but the sad truth is one day it wont be. it is inevitable and yet somehow i still believe we can find a way. never stop me from letting me love you. obviously in a relationship there has to be a balance. we have balance. you drive me mad sometimes and you have the absolute free pass into shattering my heart. you can cause me the most pain in my life. take away the basic structure of why i want to stay all together. and yet i still give you my heart. completely and utterly it is yours. call me foolish but i dont care. im taking the risk and i like it. i'll be your fool. happily.