Unsent Messages

i hope u dont see this which is why I put dev because I feel like not using ur name is cheating so I put dev so that there is a lower chance that you'll see this but its still possible. anyways, I kinda wish we met later on in life. not saying I regret dating you so young, I just wish we had more of a childhood and teenage experience ya know? then again its kinda fun because when were older we can be like "oh yeah we've been dating since we were 12" but if we do last that long I guess ill never be able to say if ur a bad kisser because ill never kiss anybody else cuz I'm not a #cheater. but this is sorta a fuck you for making me fall this hard for someone so young. if we do somehow manage to last it'll be the craziest thing to tell our kids. but oh man if we break up I'm done for like ill never be happy ever again. jk but like ill never be as happy as i was last September. when we hangout sometimes i get super bored because its just us watching movies for hours and hours because you wont let me go on my phone and u never wanna leave or do anything. and i just wish we could joke around more like how we did in the summer but all you do is be a baby and its so annoying. its cute every now and then but most of the time i just wanna joke around and laugh but all you wanna do is cuddle. i like listening to u talking to ur friends because it gives us a break from being attached at the hip. its also fun to hear what you guys talk about but if we broke up I'm terrified as to what you'd say about me cuz holy shit ur mean when ur talking about girls. like you have no filter. some times i wish you didn't touch my thigh or ass as much mainly because ur trying to tell me ur in a mood and I'm hardly ever in that type of mood to makeout and stuff. it still feels like that's all u wanna do but I'm not gonna tell you that because i don't want you to feel upset about it again so i just keep pushing it aside. i also wish that you asked me to hangout more instead of just on the weekends. i don't understand the difference. you didn't have practice so we would've been able to hangout for 5 hours, aka the same amount that we hang out on Friday but somehow friday is different? now that basketball starts i understand that we probs wont hangout on weekdays because that's only like 3 hours which i mean is like the same amount that we hungout on Saturday but whatever. you give me a lot of second hand embarrassment when you lie. its so obvious that ur lying. watching criminal minds 12 times is just stupidly false. i highly doubt you've even finished it once. you've also said you had 200 girls on snap which is also so true because every time we had each other on snap during the summer we would snap for like a day and i would be ur number one on snap. i hate how you just randomly get mad and then just expect me to know whats wrong. or when you force me to talk about my feelings when i obviously don't want to. i just want to crack jokes and try to make myself happier but you just keep asking whats wrong and sometimes i just don't really know whats wrong so i don't want to talk about it. its not rocket science. if i say i don't want to don't make me. i know ur trying to be the best you can and thank u sm for that