From: ABC
To: Yani
Date: January 5, 2021, 3:08 am
i don’t want to text all of this to you i don’t want to be dumping on you all the time so atleast when you see this you won’t feel the need to “deal with it” bc you can just act like you never saw it that’s fine- that’s literally the reason i’m saying all this here. taking this way worse than when that boy rejected me in a weird way you remember that? thanks for letting me come to you with that i felt really cared about. Being close to you was the best feeling in the world it was always so funny- and you really dealt with me and my shit for so long it was the best thing ever for me and now i need that more than ever and it’s understandable why i can’t get to that point with you anymore but is it really that wrong to miss it? is it bad to say i don’t think i can survive this year without my actual best friend? i fucked up i’m so sorry. i’m so sorry i’m so sorry i wasn’t there for you when you needed someone. you gave and you gave and i took as much i could fucking get. but i can give now. I can give so fucking much and everyday i dream that you’d let me try. losing you was deserved- i haven’t completely lost you but not having you the way i did fucking eats me alive. I’m sorry you didn’t have me the way you needed me and i’m so sorry i was too fucking dumb to notice. i love you so much. Please give me another chance if you can i won’t fuck it up this time i swear on everything. i hope you see this one too