Unsent Messages

tbh I'm kinda sad over you. I basically ruined everything between us. You actually told me how you felt, even though that's something you never do. I chose to hurt you and it makes me sad because I feel like your not going to want to open up to any girl again. I've always thought you were cute, even when we weren't on speaking terms. You are still nice to me even though I did something very wrong to you. I remember when I felt like I didn't really have anybody, you would make my nights by calling me or by even showing you cared. Im not sure if I like you or not but i know your different because I've never cried over a guy for awhile now. I don't think you would ever fully trust me again, but your definitely a guy I love talking to. Even though theres absolutely nothing between us, I ignore other guys because I like texting you instead. Even tho you can barely answer. Seeing your name pop up on my phone makes me happy i don't know if its because you really never text me back or what lmao. I think your one of the guys that will have a special place in my heart because whenever we talk it just feels so comfortable, with most people i don't enjoy talking to them. tbh I don't know what your thinking, I don't know if you still see the good in me, I don't know if you never want anything with me, if you still feel the same way you did a couple months ago, or if you like me a little. you were here for me when I was at my lowest, you made me feel better about myself, you uplifted me all the time, you put a smile on my face, but I just didn't see how great of a guy you were. I speak about how guys suck and no guys have a good heart, but tbh I think you have a good heart. I understand you have trouble showing it, but i think in general your a great guy. Your honestly adorable and I don't know how I did the thing I did. Your honestly perfect to me, especially your smile. thank you for always finding a way to make me smile even if its the most simple thing like answering me back. I still don't know if i like you or not but your definitely a special guy in my life.