Unsent Messages

thanks for breaking me. you were my everything for over a year, i knew after our first facetime that we were gonna be unstoppable. i guess things change. we were there for each other for everything and we were so interested in each other and it was genuine love. i felt something with you that i had never felt with anyone before...and my dumbass was too dumb to come to terms with it. i never meant to hurt you, that was the last thing i'd ever want to do. after you made a poor choice out of anger i felt so betrayed and had a terrible feeling that it was the beginning of the end. you told me you loved me for the first time and days later acted like nothing happened. things were going so well too, we were just getting physically comfortable with each other, we even talked about our future. i miss having my person everyday that would make me smile so hard my mouth hurt. i know that love has turned into lust and i have completely come to terms with that. i guess that's all i'm good for now anyway. i hate you because i can't help but love you, but now i need to let go...even though i know i can't. im going to end up hurt again if i don't find someone healthy for me. i still look for you in people, i need to stop wasting my time typing...waiting for you to call. i'm sorry that things ended the way they did and that i never told you how i felt until it was too late...i guess i might have been the problem. goodnight. xoxo