Unsent Messages

I can't stop thinking about you. It drives me crazy hoping you're okay. Sometimes I wish that you'd randomly text me and ask me how I've been but I know that won't happen. I just want to talk to you again. I know you're out there in the world and living your life but I just wanna know if you still think about me or am I just a faint memory now? I've never been this stuck on someone but I was so attached to you, I couldn't see myself not being with you. I was crazy about you. Sometimes I wonder if you ever truly felt the same way. I don't understand what it was about you that just pulled me in. You were just perfect to me. You were the first guy I had no shame in liking, no matter what anyone said I just never wanted to be away from you. You made me happy and nothing could change that. I just wanna know why you left. What changed? Why did you lie to me? Why did you hurt me? I just want you to see me now. I'm in a place where I love myself and I'm happy but I wish I could share it with you. You always wanted me to see myself the same way you did and now that I do you're not here. You broke my heart and I don't know why I miss you but I do.