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this note is something that I briefly explained to u with my stupid "i like u" txt which completely back fired on me. i really thought u felt the same way tbh, but i was sadly mistaken. somedays i really really hate u, other days, i think abt u all day long. right now, i really wish we still talked the way we used to back in april-june. i didn't realize it at the time, but talking to u was my favorite part of the day. even though some of the things u would say would start fights between u and the group, i ignored bc i really liked u. i told u that i had to even un add u on snap so i wouldn't tell u that i liked u, which was true. i was kinda obsessed with u. ur personality, sense of humor, work ethic, just everything abt u, i love. in the middle of writing this, i realize how stupid i sound rn, but i used to/still really like u, and ik u dont feel the same, which hurts my heart everyday tbh. i always ask myself, "what's wrong with me?" "why doesn't he like me back" any possible way i can change myself for u to like me, and i realize, there's nothing i can do to get u to like me which really sucks. being friends with u was sm fun and i really wish we still were, but i kinda ruined that in the summer when we stopped talking. if i could send this to u, trust me i would, but ik u will never understand the way i feel abt u. i will always be there for u tho, no matter what.