I just need u to tell me ur proud of me , for u to see all the battles I’ve fought with no one beside me . Because no one ever sees my tears bc I’ve been strong for so long, I’ve hidden my pain behind a facade of happiness and humour , I just feel so empty. Nothing makes me happy anymore, no matter how hard or loud I cry , no one comes running in , no one comes w tissues or hugs and bc of this I feel like I’m drowning . I wish u knew this , I wish u could feel what I’m feeling bc I want u too feel the pain I’m going through bc of u , but even then I’ll come and tell u it’s okay , because that’s what happens all the time to me. The kindest hearts have felt the most pain.