From: ABC
To: mom
Date: January 4, 2021, 7:21 pm
i hate you so much you ruin so many things for me you dont let me live the life i wanna live you hold me back so much in things i love well i used to love you pull me back and hold me back so much i cant live like this anymore i just wanna leave this house full of trauma and pain and start over with people who will care abt me and will let me live my life in my own way bc im simply just not the daughter you want me to be and im sorry that i dissapoint you like that im sorry that i cant be better or cant do better im just struggeling and you and dad dont notice that im losing myself and that im falling back into a darkplace i fought so hard to get out of and you made me get back to that place so quick like how could you do that to your daughter and dont notice it like wtf is wrong with you i have scars all over my hands from nights you took it too far and i started blaming myself for the fact that you do this to me