Unsent Messages

I still want to talk to you but I don't want you to know that. obviously I knew the chances of you actually wanting to talk and not just for pics were unlikely but I didn't want to admit it. ive accepted the fact that you probably dont think of it as much as I do. I told my friends about you, but probably so did that other girl trying to send you pics did to. I also just want to know why you would talk to me for this long all for you to only want pics when there's so many other girls out there. why me. I told myself you only live once so many times that I opened up to you more then probably anyone and I dont even KNOW you. I feel like you know me more then Ik you. and the thing is I think now I shoudve known you didn't want to talk to me even tho you said you did because no matter what you were asking for pics. and there were also sometimes when I wouldn't really care to send them, just the way you asked. I knew when we went 4 days without talking you would have texted me if you wanted but you didn't and I feel stupid now for texting you but the last thing you said to me really hurt me and I feel even more stupid because like I said ive never met you. I even lost my bestfreind because of you. for all I know she could have told you. I dont think well be talking anymore after what you said ... does this mean your mad at me or yk im hurt by what you said or you just dont care I dont know but im ok with it now .