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So im typing this in under ur nickname because I don't really want you to see it - at least not yet. i wont ever tell you, but it hurt me when u picked him over me, because i am in love with you. not just like infatuation or confusion, but i want to spend the rest of my life with you. were only best friends, but im mesmerized by your laugh and your singing and your smile and what you say and how you truly care about me and my life. i genuinely could imagine spending my whole life with you, and thats hella scary tbh. i care about you so much though more than youll ever know, and if he is what makes you happy, thats all i want. ill be okay. but hey, if he does it again, ill be here thats a promise. you mean the universe to me. i think ill always love you, but maybe one day ill move on. either way, thank you for being here for me. im so fucking lucky to have you.