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I don't really know what to do at this point anymore since so much time has passed and I'm a completely different person since last time I saw you, and where I last saw you still bothers me to this day presently. I don't know what you want, but most of the time I feel you intensely thinking about me. I try to ignore those feelings, but I can't. your thoughts weigh on my shoulders like cinderblocks. I try to shake my own thoughts of you away but it'll just be strange things like seeing the car you drive, or seeing a letter M, little things. I don't know where I'm going with this even with the small probability you will see this, but I need to get this out somewhere. I can't keep being in denial of caring about you. because I do."