i wish i knew how to live well after you and stop holding on, it wasnt that deep and yet i loved you and will always love you. i should have gave you a fucking hug that night in the apartment. doesnt matter that people were watching. who the fuck cares now. i should have. maybe it would have changed things. i wanted to spend the rest of my life with you, i was prepared to be loyal even if it was long distance. and you hurt me by blocking me, i wanted to know for once if you actually cared or were just leading me on. also, i would have held you in two days if it hadn't been for you. i hope you dont come back for both of our sakes. ily.