Unsent Messages

fuck you. fuck you for making me fall in love at such a young age. fuck you for “loving” me. you really had to tell me i was special and i believed it. fuck you cause my dumbass really waited for you. i rejected everyone that came my way cause i promised you i would wait. i promised so many things and guess what? i kept them all, every. single. one. guess what i was still here when you came back. i promised you would always have a special place in my heart and i wasn’t lying. my heart aches thinking about you. i was so happy. but i was just another person you talked to cause you were bored. i got too attached. when you left, everything left with you. my self confidence, my self love. but i had to act like none of that shit hurt me. like i didn’t care. i’m not saying this to make you feel bad. not at all. just saying what i think. i’m never gonna send this to you, don’t want to ruin what we have now, if its even considered anything. i miss the old you so much.